When I was small, everything that I did was frowned upon, it was wrong, or not good enough. So I made things that no one could see, or would not last. I painted with rain water on the surface of stones or paving slabs, fleeting images made to vanish in the warm sun. I made patterns with leaves which would be blown away by the wind, miniature gardens from twigs and moss. Little things that didn’t matter to anyone but me.
I never stopped making, small artistic efforts that never amounted to much. I loved books, and dreamed about being an illustrator and my work became more and more illustrative.
When our three sons were still young I enrolled at art college. Immediately I was told that I should stop making illustrations and start to research contemporary artists as it was clear to the lecturers that I my ideas and my thought processes were those of a conceptual artist, this much was true.
As a result, I made my way from foundation to university gaining a 1st class honours, then on to a masters degree. Then, I lectured, I curated, I saw all sides of the art world, and stopped making art. There were ideas in my head, there were lots of things that I wanted to make, but I couldn’t, I just could not!
Rather than spending my life working in a world that stifled me and consistently disappointed me, I took a leap in a very different direction and with my husband became a foster carer.
Suddenly, I was inspired! Any spare time that I had I spent making, I started to visit exhibitions again (taking lots of children along too, they were not always impressed). Over the past 11 years I have found my way back to the art that I love to make, art that makes me happy, and, from what I can gather, makes other people happy too!
I do not regret a moment of the time that I spent studying fine art, I have acquired so many different skills and techniques and met so many wonderful people along the way. I also got the politic stuff and angst driven work out of my system.
Now I am making illustrative work, small sculptures, crazy blankets and who knows what else I might be making by this time next week.
I enjoy sharing my work with the wider world through exhibitions and through social media, I have had nothing but positive responses to the things that I make and have felt very supported by the creative community.
I was rather happy to see how many people had taken the trouble to look at and like one of my recent paintings. I feel incredibly blessed that I can make work and very fortunate to have gained such a positive response.
To all of the artists out there who are feeling a little less than confident … GO FOR IT! STAY CREATIVE!!!!!